Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Horrible, Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

I wish I were kidding, but I'm not.

This morning I woke up to a text message from my mom telling me to call home. My grandpa died last night. Today, April Fool's Day, would be his 66th wedding anniversary with my grandma. My grandpa went in the hospital last week shortly after I had my appendectomy and he's been unresponsive since Saturday, so yesterday I knew he didn't have much longer, but this is still terribly sad. The funeral is this weekend so today I've been making arrangements for how to get there.

In between travel planning I checked the GRFP page on a whim and to my surprise it says that the 2008 award list is up, although I haven't received an email yet. As you can probably guess now, I'm not one of the 913 lucky people on the list.

I'll have to wait for the email to get feedback on my application because there are no score sheets posted to my account when I login. I wonder what I @#(*@ed up. This really sucks. Especially today of all days.

Good luck to all my new readers who are also waiting to hear from NSF. I hope your day is better than mine.


Grad School Girl said...

I am one of those lurkers who also applied to NSF (didn't get it). *Hugs* I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather and Im sorry it all happened in the course of 1 day :-(.

Grad School Girl said...

I haven't received my email yet, no. I "hacked" (self-edited the html on the site to include the 2008 option...so not really hacking) the lists last night after a friend of mine said she saw her letter on her applicant page. Alas, I, too want to see my score sheets, though as I said on my blog my research plan wasn't as specific as perhaps it needed to be.

EcoGeoFemme said...

I'm so sorry to hear about both. That is a bad day indeed. You have my condolences about your grandfather.
Try your hardest to put the NSF thing in perspective though. That fellowship is SO competitive because SO MANY people apply for it. Lots of schools require all their new students to apply just to get them going on their projects. It must be one of the most competitive awards out there. Your proposal might have been quite fundable, but they had to draw the line somewhere. It still super sucks though.

erthgirl said...

i'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather- you are your family are in my thoughts. i'm sure the nsf news didn't help. you had a hard day.
i'm the one who commented the other day- the mom geologist. anyhow, i didn't get the nsf either. blah.

Anne-Marie said...

Wow, I'm so sorry, I wish you weren't having to deal with the multiple layers of stress right now, especially after your recent health problems...take care and hang in there, you and your family will be in my thoughts...

Paulina said...

oh you poor dear,
sorry about your grandpa. how is your grandma holding up?